AUTHOR / PUBLISHER / ARTIST / DIGITAL ARTIST
MY BOOK: Beauty-Beyond-Darkness
Lilla’s inspirational story is an example of how the strength of a woman can overcome adversity, struggling against polio, rape, domestic abuse, drugs, and homelessness in the Melbourne underworld.
My book has been updated BEAUTY-BEYOND-DARKNESS SECOND EDITION
A FEW WORDS: about my book.
These are my memories, triumphs, joys, despair, sadness, anger, fears… The tempest of emotions. I experienced for ten years.
This is a story about survival.
This book is the last step in calming the storm. From the deepest, darkest pit—living on the streets as a disabled person and a drug addict, vulnerable, lost and bewildered—I rose above it all into a new and better world, a happier and functional world, the world I always dreamed of, at peace within myself.
Born in Sicily, struck with polio when only a few months old, forced to live in institutions for much of my early childhood, my life was turned upside down when the family decided to immigrate to Australia: a strange country, an unknown language, a foreign culture.
Dark times followed as I struggled to adjust to this family I scarcely knew, and as they struggled to relate to me. I have used the dark mines of these horrid memories to extract the strength and courage to look ahead.
Living on the streets of Melbourne at fifteen years of age, struggling to survive, stumbling around on twisted legs that needed callipers to give them strength… Drugs, sex, rape, depression and violence were my constant companions.
Finally I climbed my way out of the morass, finding support in Odyssey House, in Melbourne and Sydney.
Then fleeing north, to Cairns, in Far North Queensland, where I found such tremendous support in the Addiction Help Agency (AHA), Alcoholics Anonymous (AA), and other groups and agencies.
This is my story.
Perhaps my autobiography is not that important to many. But I don’t care anymore what people think of me. I need to write. I wanted to write this story to express my pride for having made it; to make everyone see that, disability or no disability, I, too, have made it, all on my own. Yes, I am mighty proud of it.
It took me many years to write this book. So many tears, and almost as many years of procrastination. Now I understand why I had to do it.
For years I didn’t believe my story was good enough to be told. I thought, ‘I am nothing. Who wants to read my story?’ But then one day I thought, ‘I am somebody.
I am a survivor.
I have learned how to speak my mind, my heart and my soul.’ Now I would love my children to know my real story.
Mine is a story of courage, fear, disappointments, love, pain, a life story that is Beauty Beyond Darkness.
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